I think I’ve started to narrow down the cause of me being unemployed right now. Simply put, I’m afraid to take giant leaps of faith. I’ve seen plenty of job openings that fit the description of what I’m more than capable of but I keep making up reasons as to why I can’t do it. The most common one I’ve come across is the fear of not knowing how I’ll get there every day without reliable transportation. That’s locally.
On a broader spectrum I’m afraid to apply to any places outside of Florida. I’ve got my reasons and I think they’re legitimate but I’m at this point in my life where I can go anywhere and do anything. I’ve got that luxury. I’ve always been a spontaneous kind of guy but for some reason I’m being too careful right now. I’m over-thinking all of the factors that will come into play if one thing goes a certain way or if it goes another. I’m coming up with reasons as to why something won’t work without actually seeing it for myself.
Today I applied for a realistic position in California just to take that first step across the threshold of comfort. I don’t know if I will get it. Realistically, there will be dozens of others with that extra experience I don’t have that will beat me out of the job. Maybe I’m just being negative again. The point is, I’m ready and willing to go anywhere at any time and it won’t be easy for me if the time comes.
